It is the end of the year at the high school I am working at and there are many end of the year events going on and I find myself reflecting alot...lol..imagine that! lolol. Well I was at the end of the year rally today and WOW the energy that I felt. The loud music was playing (gosh I will never out grow the love of loud music), the kids were chanting their class slogans and you could just cut the energy and enthusiasm with a knife. I love the honesty with ones self and the youthful energy of working with teenagers. This means I can too, carry those traits on my shirt sleeve! As we were watching the end of the year video it was very evident who the favorite teachers were and they all have a couple things in common. They are youthful in thier personalties. By youthful I mean they are comfortable in their own skin, they can laugh, they are honest and they just be! I am very happy and comfortable with the people I work with, both the students and the staff. I love going to work and being able to stay true to myself and be myself. lol.

I find this carries over into the other parts of my life. I am becoming comfortable anywhere I am. It might just be too, that I am in my 40's...lololol. Gosh I love the 40's!


Until next time...Hugs

Being Brave

How do you just let go? How do you forget everything and leave it all out there?

My obsticle is trusting my horse and going fast...not almost fast but fast. We are stuck in almost fast, but not even close...lol. I was out last night trying to improve my speed on the barrel pattern, I did a couple practice runs, I thought we were doing really well. I thought we added quite a bit of speed and I was on my way to make a real run...yeah right. I'll give you a hint, never look at the video! lolol. I suck!!! I so totally suck!! We where not very fast at all and there were so many mistakes. How can that be, I ask? The wind was blowing through my hair, I was really going! I know it! I was trusting my horse and he was really going...NOT! lolol. Well back to the drawing board. And I think I will leave the video camera in the house. lolol.

Summer

My summer break from work is comming and I could not be happier. Life is chugging along and the ride is good! We are planning our trip to the Blues Festival in Portland in July. I always do some sort of re-organizing the house and/or painting during summer. So I have plans to get our office set up in our home. Should make life more orgazined...lol...yes I know I am kidding myself.

I have been thinking about persepective and the filter that each of us have that is unique to each individual. How do you get there? How do you grow and learn? I think I am always changing and evolving...then I see someone else who thinks they are...but they arent...lol...is that me too? Hmmm. I see so many with out compasion! They have jealousy and anger in its place, why? I was around an individual that says mean things without thinking, why? I did realize this individual is feeling inadequate and needs to be right to feel accepted. It was like a competition to talk to this person...I chose not to converse...way to tiring. lolol. Another thing that came to mind is that each person thinks they are "right" in thier ways and way of thinking. Hmmm. I believe that there are always 50 or more ways to do 1 thing right. lolol. But if someone does not agree with us, does that make them wrong? I think not. Is it not more important to have a relationship than to be right?

Just some of my thought, hugs and love to all.